| Saturday. April 1st 2006 |
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well im not sure how today is guuna be,
but i no we are suppsoed to get thunder storms. BLAH!
i love the rain. just not thunder .. or lightening,
its been a long ass time since ive writen in here.
i dont no why. but i has been.
nothin that exciting has happened.
me and baron are the same
.. oh ya... i didnt get accepted to tri-county.
which ive been tryin to do all year,
my grades were awesome.
and everything was really good
the interview was great,
i just dont get it.
another dissapointment in my life.
thats the story of my life.
well its starting get brighter outside,"]
now im just wating for baron to get up.
and im not sure if hes going toghis parents or not.
staying back has messed up my life soooo bad,
everything is just so fucked.
all my friends i had last year.
just disapperared.
except for jess and devon and zak and baron and others.
i made ALOT of new friends this year.
its wicked awesome being able to start over.
not many people new nme last year,
so this year i coulkd be whoever i wanted to be
lol
last year people were like ohh gothic!
and now this year. its like im emma
well ya i dont wear black anymore.
but i wasnt gothic at all
gothic is just a stupid fuckin lable!
but ya.
thats all that new.
people told me that i badly needed to update my journal.
so now i just did "]
byessssss
Emma
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[06 Mar 2006|10:58am] |
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its been a while since ive posted.
well im stayed home from school today.
i just felt like total and complete shit this morning.
and now im waiting for it to be 230-3
but thats when my love gets home.
.. thats like all i want right now.
just to lay dow with him.
i regret not going today.
but its not my fault that im sick.
i just cant believe that it came back!
well im almost done with my meds.
hopefully it made some improvement.
lol iam so impatient.
lol its like 1103.
i still have like 3-4 hours!
well im gonna go find something to do,
love you guys!!
Emmy
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[24 Feb 2006|10:46am] |
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well today is like.. not a bad day
but not so good.
i went to the doctors and i found out that i have a kidney infection.
but i am on meds already..
so it might get cleared up the first time.
last time i had it.
it took six different meds to get me better.
i felt so bad zak like freaked when i told him
he said he would stay with me everything if he could.
hes such a sweeetie!
lol
i love him.. hes my bestest friennd everr,"]
well now i mwatching chasing liberty.
its a good movie
it makes me want to go to europe,
lol
hopefully, baron gets up earlier then like the time he got up at 1 or 2
and later today wwe are going to the movies with brit and jay.
i love brit and jay.
i havent seen them im soooooo long.
its gunna be great seeing them again.
grrr im bored.
well...
im gunna go on myspace now.
lol
loverrr you guys..,,,
emmaa
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[23 Feb 2006|07:36am] |
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i hope today is gunna be a better day then yesterday.
i was just mad because i missed baron alot ..
but today i will be in a better mood,
hopefully.
i trust him
so im not expecting any bad news .. or any secrets.
hopefully...
zak has been the best through this whole thing with me.
i would have had a MAJOR breakdown without him."]
im wicked excited to see baron.
i no 2 days doesnt seem like much to people..
but for me and baron its like hell.
but i am gettin used to him having to go,
im gunna have to.
this summer hes going away to el salvador.
for like a week.
so.. ill have to deal.
its almost 8 o' clock..
why the hell do i wake up sooo early,
im awkward. lol
i cant wait.. lol
i havent even talked to him on the phone.. and like 2 times on myspace..
grrr i hate waiting. "]
but i will
because i love him.
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| fuck today |
[22 Feb 2006|04:33pm] |
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well i found out baron is staying over tor' house for another day.
i couldnt help but cry..
idk he hasnt call me ..
he just signed off. on myspace when i was talking to him.
idk today is a bad day.
i pretty much just sat here and waited for him to message me.
idk
bye
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| BAD DAY!!!! |
[22 Feb 2006|10:42am] |
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GRRRRR
today is a bad day!!
well baron finally messaged me on myspace.
and i was like when are u coming home.
and he said he didnt no,
and then i find out that that casey chick was over there too..
i am just not okay with the fact that he slept over.
but im not mad at him.
i just wish.. idk
grr
well.. today is gunna be mad boring..
i dont wanna just sit here all day and wait for his ass toget home..
so im gunna go out and do something
i dont no waht..
well i might be going out with jessybee today.
not going out..,.. ohh u no what i mean..
peace whore.."]
emmaa
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| zachary russell benson |
[21 Feb 2006|07:45pm] |
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zakkky is over
woo hoo
but..
baron is away at tory's.
which makes me saddd.."[
but he will be back tomoro..
hopefully:"/
but yaaa zak is here "]
which is goodd!!!!!!!
lol w e played video games all day..
i whipped his asss."P
zak made a good effort"]
i had fun today.. zak's my bestest friend "]
hehehe.
later.
emma
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| boreddddd... |
[20 Feb 2006|09:45am] |
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uhhh idk i am just soooooo fricking bored..
im waiting for sleeping beauty to wake up :] :]
in other words .. baron
i found out yesterday that i might not have a kidney infection. :]
which is such a fucking relife.. or hoever u spell it ..
this tuesday baron is going away for a night..
tory's house,, and yes she is a girl..
and yes that does piss me offf.
and this casey will be there too..
and casey ...
idk
i dont hate her..
i like herrr
its just that i dont like her hanging all over him.
her default in her myspace is her and baron
and they are laying on eachother..
which was last summer
while we were going out..
but im not even gunna sy anything..
it's just that she constantly tries to make me jealous
i was talking to her once.
and she was like bitching at me..
in a kind of nice way
she was like share baron
we miss him too
everytime i call his house & he ALWAYS at ur house,
and i was like okay im srryyy..
and she was like ya and when i call his house and he answeers he always says he has to go bcause ur there..
and i was like okay im srry he says he feels bad when hes on the phone when im there.
and she was like WOAH WAIT HE FEELS BAD ABOUT USING THE PHONE!
and i was like im srry
its not my fault
and she was like saying all these things
and she was like well atleast ill get to see him over feb vaca,,
and i was like im gunna miss hin :[
she said , well he'll be with me and i'll get mine
i was like holy shit,
you did not just say that to me.
why would she say to me HIS GIRLFRIEND
that she'll get hers,
i was about to ay something but i didnt
but i dont care anynore,.. because she IS NOT COMPETITION
not being mean..but he isnt interested. :]
wow i realised i can bitch forever lol :]
well im gunna stop now and call baron.
love you all,
love ,,
emmaaa
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I AM: Unique
I WANT: baron here with me
I HAVE: shiney haiirr
I WISH: i didnt stay back
I HATE: the pastt...
I MISS: my friends from last year
I HEAR: music in my head,, time of your life.. geen day
I REGRET: loving him.
I ALWAYS: try my best
I AM NOT: stupid
I DANCE: when no one is looking
I SING: when im around only my good friends.
I CRY: when i can't see him
I WRITE: everyday
I WIN: the guys i want
I LOSE: friends
I CONFUSE: people who i am going out with
I NEED: a better personality
I SHOULD: trust people
[YES OR NO]
You keep a diary: kind of.. i have like a bigillion notebooks!
You like to cook: yes.. lol
You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: ... kind of
You set your watch a few minutes ahead: nope
You believe in love: yes.. i am in love.. and its infinint
[WHO IS]
The weirdest person you know: jeanie ! lol but i love herr
The loudest person you know: phil or jessybee
The person that knows the most about you: jess and baron
Your crush: .. baron.. DURR
[DO YOU]
Take showers: indeeeddd
Think you know everything: not at alll
Want to get married: yes! :)
Have any tattoos/where: nope but i will get somee
Piercings/where: ears.. had moree..
Get motion sickness: yesss
Think you're a health freak: nope.... kinda... grrr
Get along with your parents: sometimess.... othertimes i wanna smack em'!
Like thunderstorms: GRR NOOO!!!
[WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF?]
Ryan: flower
Rob: Toro
Drew: CArey
Heather: gram
Will: ferril
Frank: from mcr
Eve: cristmas!
John: stalkererrr
Lauren: lol love herrr
Alex: miss her
Justin: grrrr
Ricky: miss him
Jacob: baron's cousinn
Jack: the ripeer
Graham: heather
Lisa: simpson
[RANDOM]
NATURAL HAIR COLOR:diryty dirty blonde
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: DARK brown
EYE COLOR: depends on day.. some days all brown.. others hazel
PARENTS: bipolar mom... mafia dad
SIBLINGS: katie david kristin andy
LIVE IN: a house in wrentham
[FAVORITE]
NUMBER: 4 or 7
COLOR: aqua
DAY: saturday
MONTH: june
SONG: perfect situation : weezerr
FOOD: pasta.. rice... ANYTHINGF ITALIAN!
SEASON: spring summmer
SPORT: ... ewww
DRINK: iced tea.. reg tea..sprite
VEGGIE: carrots brocoli peppers.. and oherss
RELATIVE: cousins in medway
[PREFERENCES]
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: netitherrrr.. lactose intolerant
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: dark.. i can eat it !
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: blahhhh
[IN THE LAST WEEK, HAVE YOU]
CRIED: YES
HELPED SOMEONE: yes
GOTTEN SICK: yes
GONE TO THE MOVIES: nope
GONE OUT FOR DINNER: yea
SAID "I LOVE YOU": yess
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: nope
TALKED TO AN EX: yes
MISSED SOMEONE: of course
HUGGED SOMEONE: again, of course
KISSED SOMEONE: yes
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS:oh yaaa
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND: nope
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[12 Feb 2006|09:14am] |
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its been forever since ive seen baron!!
i hope hes coming home today
and i best get to see himmm!
or ill be soo sad
!!
IDYED MY HAIR FOR THE LASSSTT TIMEEE!!
it came out awesome!!
its ike a brownish black!
:)
i cnt wait for him to see it
well im bored
so ima gooo
LOVE YAAA
emmaaa
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| soo boreddd... |
[10 Feb 2006|10:26am] |
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im just sitting here waitng for school to get out!
i hope i can atleast hang out with zakky. :)
everybody like sucks!
people just butt into my fucking buisness!
some people think that me and zak like eachother more than friends
well i used to
and i told baron that
but now i dont
i love him as a friend
some people were telling me to break up with baron..
and i was like fuck no!
i couldnt believe who told me to either.
they are nameless.
but everything is okay now i hope.
i just couldnt believe it was happening.
damn, people are jealous:)
but they should be
because i have baron and he has me.
its forever!
wow
so i am going to leave this alone now
emmaa
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| i hate letting go... |
[10 Feb 2006|09:36am] |
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well another bad weekend.
baron is going away to camp for the weekend.
we had plans.. and now we cant do them.
he is always wicked wicked busy.
this summer he is going away to el salvador!
for 10 days!
i am going have a fucking breakdown.
well atleast i have zakky :)
hes my bestestfriend everrr:)
it sucks terrbily though.
wow this song like explains everything!
i do hate who ive been..
i get so angry at him for the littlest things.:(
like last night..
he told me that he had to go for the weekend.. and i didnt talk to him for 3 hours..
not knowing that i couldnt even see him today to say goodbye..
so i fucked that up bigg timee!
i need a hugg!:(
XxxX
emmaa
i love him with all my heart and everything i have..my life would be nothin with out him.
i miss him already :'(..
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